Gravity

Its common knowledge that everything that goes up must come back down, its called gravity. Gravity is what I beleive I am experiencing in my life, the euphoria of being in a new place and doing something different is now waring off and I am left with reality. Today one of the male nurses, Ramesh, said that I was starting to look more Indian, not becuase I am getting tanner becuause I'm not and not because I'm wearing Indian clothes, because I rarely do, he said this because I wasn't as happy as I usually am. Usually I am always laughing and smiling but today I am tired and my spirit seems heavier than usual. Ever since Kashappa died things move a little bit slower, being carefree in India isn't exactly the easiest thing to do. I've been having more trouble sleeping, but I believe that even though its good to be happy there are certain times in life when God takes you though the valleys. I absolutly love it here still and I can't imagine being anywhere else, but I think I'm at the part of my journey where God is showing me his pain, He's giving me a small taste of what he feels and as painful as it is, I am so glad He's doing it.
I go over to my friends house every night for Kannada lessons which is something that makes life a little easier. Its weird how well I fit in with them, there are four girls that are sisters, Laxmi, Ranuka, Sujeta, and Divya. Their oldest sister was killed by her husband and her sister in law but no action was taken against the husband because their parents were cousins. Three years later their father died from the grief of loosing his daughter, I can't imagine choosing someone for your child to marry and then ending up having her be murdered by that person. When they told me all of this all I could really say was wow and that I could even begin to imagine how hard that would be. Being with them is like being home again because two are younger than me and two are older around the same ages as my sisters. Somedays being with them keeps me sane, they are also all Hindu so I have learned a lot about that culture and religion.
I also found out this week that one of my friends here, Dr. Sheeba, was gone for three days because her husband beat her with a stick on her leg so she couldn't walk because it was too painful. That fact that they are christians makes it even harder. This is one of the reasons I have had trouble sleeping.
I can understand the comment that I look more Indian because I'm not as happy because life is so hard for people here. After Ramesh said this I decided that was my cue to go home and pray because I am suppose to show joy through the pain, even when life gets so hard and I feel like just laying down and sleeping, I should still bring the joy of the Lord to these people because there is still hope through the pain.
On a lighter note I am now alone in my house for the next two weeks because the two swedish girls left and another one doesnt come until the 4th of November. The fact that november is next week scares me becuase that means I only have a month left here and then I go to Hong Kong and Bombay! And my mother comes next saturday which will be great! I hope that everyone is doing well and that you get to see God working in your life daily!

Prayer Request

That this sickness will leave me, I slept all day yesterday and now just have the leftovers of sickness in me.
For the Patients, that I would show the love of Christ to them and that they would be healed
For the Staff, that they would find joy in their work and that they would lean on the Lord.
That God would bless the Patil family

I miss you and love you all!